This Summer

Well this summer has been just a blast. Honestly. I mean there were some hard times, as there always are, and there were sad things too. Things like seeing how people move on when you're not there, while a little part of you is secretly hoping they don't. Things like the backward glance at your grandparents before you get on the plane and know you wont see them for yet another year. But I know all about goodbyes; I'm actually pretty experienced at them, considering i say goodbye to so many people so many times. You just have to look forward, throw your shoulders back, and put on a confident look, even if you're feeling anything but. That's one of my secret tricks for living.
And among the sad things, there have been really great things too. Like meeting all my friends from Maryland, and knowing I could fit in so easily there. Things like jumping right into the pool without even feeling the water first, clad in striped bikinis with one of your greatest friends. Things like dancing to Titanium with your sort-of boyfriend, and things like lying under the stars on a cloudy night only to have them finally move and have the shiny big dipper sitting there proudly.
I've learned a lot this summer, and made more out of it then I probably thought I would. And I wouldn't say I'm completely happy, hence the new school and everything, but i'm grateful for a lot of things. For one, this summer has taught me to be really thankful for my brothers- all 6 of them. I remember that phone call when my dad called from the hospital to say it was a boy, and i remember my face falling. But honestly, I couldn't imagine it any other way. And this is going to sound REALLY cliche, and im cringing while writing it, but i love and trust my brothers on lots and for lots of different ways. M for his humor and overprotectiveness, N for his ability to fix anything, R for just being my "sister" in the family and for always telling me the truth about how that outfit really looks. J for just being there and reminding me not to be so selfish, and B for just being himself. They were all there for me this summer, and I like to think i've prepared them for girlfriends and everything girly.
I've been called alot of nice things this summer, and I don't know if they are all true or not, but i think they wouldnt have been said if they weren't.
So I've done everything from watching Grey's Anatomy episodes till 5 in the morning, to taking a dare and walking to the edge of a slippery roof at 2 a.m, from taking a ten hour train ride to slow dancing on a skating ramp. And i love saying these things, because every time I think about, it makes me smile. And i'm going to need that for my new year, ALOT. So I know that I have 3 amazing friends that i made in Putney who will have my backs no matter what. I have to go to bed so im not late for my meeting tomorrow, but I just have to conclude my satisfaction that I made everything i could out of my summer, and for just being me, and not anyone else, and moving to a school that will probably help me in lots of ways too.
Bye for now:)